I attended a QiGong class on March 22. The teacher was a Master of QiGong with Chinese family lineage going back about five thousand years. He spoke through a translator. Although I found I could ‘hear’ another lecture by just observing him. I expected to be influenced by being in his presence for 7 hours but did not know what the longer term effects would be.
I tolerated the class much better than expected. I chose to sit instead of standing and the teacher was fine with my choice. The majority of the class was learning active movements of Qi as we learned to interact with The Universe differently. But I did not feel overly tired until the last hour. For the 4 days after the class, I had no physical pain. About 10 days after the class, my right side brain pain moved to the left side in a different pattern. I also am experiencing less dissociative amnesia.
Curt does energy work on me weekly. He noticed the overall increase of my energy, during my first treatment following the class. During my second treatment following the class, he was able to physically release some Qi affecting my right hip*. I could feel the energetic connections between my right hip, left side of neck, all of lateral most aspect of my back and down to my left ankle. It felt as if Curt was twisting my whole body around my mid-line core, actually he was supporting my head as it turned slowly like a stretch to the left.
*There is a lot of ‘trauma’ stored in the area of my right hip. Physically my gait is lopsided and painful. It has seemed resistant to change but now I see it’s slowly changing.
I’ve also noticed myself just being more accepting, comfortable and less anxious being me. I’ve been thinking and processing about being OK to be me. Accepting that I’m in different place of being than most individuals that I come in contact with here locally. My life has been different AND it was ‘designed’ to be different from the beginning. It’s beyond the influence of my early childhood trauma. It’s like the trauma is just some layers of influence.
I’ve successfully removed white sugar from my eating lifestyle and thus I am needing less Xylitol to maintain a lower saliva acidity. I’ve fired up my slow cooker making a couple of one-pot meals that were tasty and more adequately nutritious. The Sleep With Me podcast has increased the number of nights that I actually sleep. I am still unwilling to force myself into the potential terror of sleep. But when I am able to listen to the podcast, I usually sleep.
So it turned out that my insurance company made a mistake with me and many, many others. So my primary medication is not required to be only received by mail order. They just needed me to call them and then they did the correction while I was on the phone. Why this error wasn’t communicated to the national help center, so anyone needing help on Sunday, would have been re-assured that their maintenance medication would be available — is probably because everyone is too busy or didn’t even think about how the error was effecting individual policyholders … not from intentional carelessness. I’m glad it is resolved.
Got all but one of my tasks done over the weekend AND am physically – emotionally feeling the effects
— more dissociative amnesia (difficulty with time and days/nights)
— more dissociation (HF and Becky not staying present)
— increased severity of brain pain on right-side lateral edge of vision center and posterior edge of speech center and having issues with finding words to speak with and vision is not clear
— more general fatigue
My right hip pain, bilateral upper leg pain and the wobbly gait has been present for a few years now. Since the 2 foot reflexology treatments alleviated the severe upper leg pain, I’ve decided to go forward with more physical treatment. I am receiving 3 lumbar traction treatments per week for this week and the next. The initial chiropractic assessment showed propriceptorial deficiencies on the right-side below the waist and neuromuscular deficiencies directly connected to suspected spinal stenosis at L3 and L4.
The treating chiropractor doesn’t understand the ‘trauma’ link, but I am coping with the CPTSD aggravations so far. They are altered taste; and anxious talkativeness.
I trade services with a massage therapist that does energy work on me weekly. He knows my psychotherapist, who was able to explain to him the best way to do energy work on us. So instead of directly addressing specific complaints with massage therapy and gemmotherapy, it’s best to match my energy frequency and send this energy to me via his hands on my feet or neck or cradling my head. When the frequency is matched, then he can feel my energetic system ‘speaking’ about how much intensity to use and when to cease a particular session. The 3 different energy workers have commented about how my energetic system ‘speaks’ and how fast I respond. This week’s energy treatment resolved the speech issue during the treatment and 36 hours post-treatment clear vision returned.
I’m still sleeping 6-7 hours overnight. It’s a blessed experience. It feels like the 24-hour day is shorter – which I’ve experienced before as no longer a need to fill as much time every day. Although I have noticed my daily anxiety level is higher, not sure where and how I can affect it.
Last few days, I have been experiencing the ‘altered taste in my mouth’ thing. The ‘altered taste’ has been experienced once or twice every few months for many years. During these time periods, food and water do not taste as expected and generally everything tastes like bland mud. Most of the time it starts ‘out-of-the-blue’. Sometimes it seems to be triggered by our processing of traumatic memories or specific energy work on or around our brain.
Since my foot reflexology session about 7-10 days ago, I have not experienced upper leg pain and seem to be able to walk longer without discomfort. Although my right hip’s range of motion is still reduced, as I continue to have difficulty raising my right leg to get into my car. Yesterday, I received another foot reflexology treatment. During the treatment I felt more energy flowing through my pelvis and was able to stay present. In the past I haven’t tolerated energy movement through my pelvis; it always was quite triggering and I would immediately feel disturbed and could dissociate.
In my knitting realm, I discovered http://www.threadsofcompassion.org. All they ask is you knit or crochet a scarf at least 5 inches wide and 65 inches long AND that is soft and comforting. I will be making a scarf and I’ll post a picture when it’s finished.
“Threads of Compassion is a loosely connected group of survivors of sexual violence who desire to offer comfort and support to recent victims. The idea is simple. Anyone whose life has been affected by sexual assault or abuse is welcome to knit or crochet a scarf which will then be given to a victim of sexual violence when they enter the hospital for emergency treatment.”